Arise and be, all that you dreamed

The semester is OVER! I survived and passed all my classes.

I have been blessed with trials this semester. At the time it wasn't a blessing but now looking back I'm glad all those things happened. They made me aware of things that I had just written off as idiosyncrasies and not things that needed to be fixed. But the semester God has made it all too clear I need to confront these face to face and fix them. And now seems to be the time he is beckoning me to arise from my fallen position before him.
I was listening to Flyleaf on my way home yesterday and the words from the song Arise just hit me. "Arise and be, all that you dreamed all that you dreamed." Before I knew it I was in tears for no reason. It felt like a call. A call to move forward. It's refreshing and beautiful.
This morning I got a tweet from esvdaily and today was Psalm 139:7-10
"Where shall I go from your spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to the heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me."
And then my friend Amy told me that her best advice is "if the God of the universe is holding me in his hand then he will help me through each of my little storms." And the the coolest thing...what I hoped for my break (courtesy of Solarium) was to be held securely in God's hand.
So where shall I go from here? I will arise and go forward knowing God is holding me.

One more year older and maybe a little more mature...maybe

So today is the big day. As of right now I just turned 21. Am I any where close to acting like an adult...no. Lol. I spent my "birthday celebration" day playing with play-doh, eating Indian food, and watching the Disney Robin Hood. Not all at once mind you. It was really sweet to celebrate it with people who care about me and remembering that there others that care about me that couldn't be with me.

I've been slowly letting God take control of everything which is SO hard for me. Every time I give him something I take something else. I've also realized that this tends to be the root of all my problems. I try to control time and give up focusing on my spiritual self or social self and dip into a depression. I am now trying to work on how I use my time. Balancing my social, spiritual and school life because school isn't all that important, not if the rest of you is at stake.

This weekend has been a sweet example of how I should live. I've been busy finishing a final project for video but I have also been hanging out with friends for my birthday celebration etc but I've been connecting with people and God in a spiritual way as well. I'm so blessed to have so many people praying and supporting me.

So...Happy Birthday to me. I've made it this far and its going to be so cool to see what God continues to do in my life.