So many things have happened in the last month but with all those things I feel like have grown past the hurt and the pain that was trying tear its way into my heart. It's still there and will always be there because that's how Satan is. He isn't someone you can forget about cuz you think you out grew him. In those times you thing you have he comes back and attacks you in the worst way and usually through your pride. Why are we humans so easily felled by pride?
But for now and daily I shall praise God cuz in he my hope is found. So today I ready Psalm 39:7. "But now, Lord who do I look for? My hope is in you." I thought that was really sweet so I put it in a note to myself on my mac. (btw my mac was gone for a week cuz it needed repairs and that taught me a lot about how much I depended on my mac to distract myself.) Then I saw a friend of my had put Romans 5:5 and 2 Timothy 1:7 in a comment on her status when she needed to love by faith. Well I'm sure God planned that out perfectly for me because when read together they read:
"But now, Lord, who do I look for? My hope is in you. And hope does not disappoint us, because god has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline."
AMAZING. I feel like I need to be continuously reminded of this. And so I shall wallpaper this on my mind and heart so that all those sneaky ways that Satan Jerk tries to get in will be for not.
I just have to remember to have my hope in God and nature renews that hope as well. How is it possible to look at the blue blue sky and the orange and yellow falling down all around and not think this is a gift from God?
I feel like this is a start to a new beginning. I registered for new semester yesterday and I have a renewed hope in my heart.